Another Day

PadmeSolo

            The light shining through the hole at the top of the roof glares down at me.  It calls to me, but it knows I cannot go to it.  It knows I cannot move from my barren hiding spot.  The dust from the floor of my hiding spot flows through the air and glows as it passes in front of the calling light.  I sigh and glance around my cage.  There is food and water, but little else.  There is little hope the food and water will last as long as I will have to stay here.  Tears come to my eyes.  If only it hadn’t happened.  If only he hadn’t turned on all of us.  But he has, and I don’t know if I can survive alone much longer.

I'm gonna wake up, yes and no
I'm gonna kiss some part of
I'm gonna keep this secret
I'm gonna close my body now

I know little of what occurred.  I was just your average Jedi Padawan, nothing special.  All of us were just normal beings.  I’ve heard stories about how it happened, how Vader turned.  I don’t know if I believe any of them.  Some blame his master, I know I don’t, and others blame his wife.  None dare to blame Palpatine.  I know we should.  I know he’s the reason, but we can barely blame anyone now.  Not with our entire population spread across light-years, not when we’re being hunted.  I know they are coming for us, all of us. Even me.
I guess, die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess, die another day

I stopped caring about the stories long ago, I suppose.  Who really cares why he turned?  What really matters is that we’re all going to die.  That just the thing, though, I don’t want to die.  They say a Jedi shall have no fear.  But I’m afraid to die.  There’s nothing else I’m scared of, no even being alone in this barren prison.  They’ll come for me and I will resist.  I will stand up for the Jedi Order.  I will show them what a Jedi is.  I will die for my people, I know I will, but I don’t want to.  I know I should be brave, but how can I be?  The entire galaxy has fallen and the ruble is just waiting to sweep me away.  I’m of no importance to the Empire.  They’ll wait and come for me when they find me.
I guess I'll die another day
[Another day]
I guess I'll die another day
[Another day]
I guess I'll die another day
[Another day]
I guess I'll die another day

I used to know him, you know.  We had classes at the Temple together.  I never thought he was dangerous.  I never imagined it would come to this.  I never imagined I would be sitting in a warehouse on Naboo.  That’s where I am, though.  I didn’t want to come here, but Master Yoda told me if I were to survive the Jedi Purge, I must leave the Temple.  I could not disobey Master Yoda, so here I am.  Naboo is a lovely planet.  Isn’t it ironic that I can’t enjoy it?  Isn’t it ironic that his wife is from here?  She is.  I suppose she’s even more scared than I am.  He’ll be coming for her long before he ever realizes I exist.  There’s nothing I can do to help her.  I’m a Jedi, I should be able to help, but now I would do nothing more than hurt her.  I will never understand how it came to this.
Sigmund Freud
Analyze this
Analyze this
Analyze this

Vader and his emperor, they stop at nothing.  They crush worlds with a single flick of the wrist or a single glance.  They will not crush me with a single glance.  I know it’s foolish to think so, but I can’t let my confidence fail now.  I must support the Jedi no matter how afraid I may be.  I must find a way to stop this madness before it progresses beyond control.  I know I may be the only hope.  I also know there must be others.  There must be others like me out there in the galaxy.  There must be a way the Jedi will survive.  I know we must sacrifice everything for the galaxy, but that is a risk we must be willing to take.  We must be willing to stand against evil and if only one good soul remains, we will have done our task.
I'm gonna break the cycle
I'm gonna shake up the system
I'm gonna destroy my ego
I'm gonna close my body now

I said before that I knew him.  I also knew his master.  He had always been an idol of mine at the Temple.  Who wouldn’t want to be like the great Obi-Wan Kenobi?  He’s defeated a Sith.  He’s defeated Vader.  At least, that’s how one story goes.  From what I’ve heard, he’s in hiding now.  He can’t reveal himself, just the same as the rest of us.  The walls that surround me here, surround him wherever he is.  None of us can escape Vader.  We all hide, we all run, but we cannot succeed.  I know I’ll probably be here until I die.  I’ll watch the streams of light from Naboo’s brilliant sun until they find me.  I will keep up hope until the day of my death.  Being a Jedi in these times, there is little choice.
Uh, uh
I think I'll find another way
There's so much more to know
I guess I'll die another day
It's not my time to go

There are so many things I wish I had done, so many things I wish I hadn’t.  I suppose it all evens out in the end, but still.  I loved a girl once, only once.  She wasn’t associated with the Jedi, just a person I saw on the Coruscant streets.  The minute my eyes met hers, I knew we had a connection.  We met numerous times, in warehouses, in cantinas, in apartments.  I broke my vow to the Jedi in every way possible.  I was young, only fifteen, but I knew Jedi did not love.  At least, they didn’t love like I loved her.  One day I was watching the holo-news and saw her picture on the display.  She had been killed in a speeder accident.  I know it’s wrong to take anyone’s death a good thing, but she freed me.  I never loved again, and I doubt I ever will.
For every sin, I'll have to pay
I've come to work, I've come to play
I think I'll find another way
It's not my time to go

I never knew my mother.   My father was killed when I was very young.  I have very few memories of him.  The Jedi Temple was my home from age three until just a few months ago when darkness fell.  I doubt anyone will know when I’m dead.  I know no one will care.  When I think of it that way, I wonder why I haven’t killed myself already and gotten it over with.  Somewhere in my heart, however, I know I have to resist.  I know that I need to stand against Vader when he comes.  Until that day, I will wait in my closed world, watching the sun shine in through the portal in the roof.
I'm gonna avoid the cliché
I'm gonna suspend my senses
I'm gonna delay my pleasure
I'm gonna close my body now

I can’t feel the Force anymore, not really.  In the Temple I was surrounded by so many in contact with the living Force, it was hard not to feel its tendrils trailing along beside me.  Here, there is no one else.  I am alone and afraid and the Force does not come to me.  I know it must be there, it always is.  Perhaps I am no longer a Jedi.  Perhaps there are no longer Jedi.  I wouldn’t be able to tell from my cage on Naboo.  I can’t even feel the creatures around me.  I’m beginning to doubt I’ll know when Vader is near.  Perhaps they’ll just kill me in my sleep and prevent the suffering of knowing that I’ve failed.  They won’t, I know.  They’re Sith.  Suffering is the name of their game.
I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day

I don’t have any information they want.  I truly pose no treat to them.  I’m just a frightened young boy hiding from his destiny.  Sure, I’m a Jedi, but I’m not as strong as you might think.  Jedi can deal with physical pain; there are simple techniques to block it.  What we can’t deal with is this.  We can’t deal with being utterly alone, even devoid of the Force.  We can’t deal with having to wait for imminent death, knowing there is no other option.  I suppose I’m a broken Jedi.  They didn’t even have to find me to break me.  They just had to let me wait.  As always, I know there should be hope, but I’m starting to doubt.
I think I'll find another way
There's so much more to know
I guess I'll die another day
It's not my time to go

In the end, I guess I have to stand up for what I believe in.  I have to survive; if not for myself, for the others like me, the others that have given up hope.  Darkness has come and there is no way out.  There is no love for me to cling to.  There is no hate for me to bind to.  There is only me.  Nothing can change that now.  The Empire is coming and I’m only one lone Jedi out to stop it.  How can there be anything left now?

Uh, uh
(Laugh)
I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day

Another day